everything has a ending......
Hi people. Just finish touching up the inno blog. I actually copied the code from this blog but still need to...improvise. Damn pissed off today because of alot of stuff sia T.T like mood swing like that-which i totally hate caz i'll affect my friends. also not their fault that these happened. thats why i try to control these mood swings.
Haiz~ sometimes when doing my inno stuff, i'll ask myself "jia min, why are you working so hard for the club?" i mean seriously, look at kh. he doesn;t do a shit at cca trainings and he gets 5 points. i get 1 more point, but the effort i put in is so much more. i got to tolerate juniors, guai lan people and try to be calm. This is the result of the person that you see in cca sessions. If i weren;t controlling myself, i would be using vulgarities. But do you hear me using? NO! And for your info, i dun take on this role because i want the cca points. sure, they are tempting and will help me alot but seriously, i dun care about the cca points. I just want to help the club and make it better. But i;ve learnt something, if i do this alone, its gonna be very hard, (just like the june camp) . thats why the fucking reason i have a committee to help me. and the vice is doing nothing just because we have some personal issues about me "stealing" his girlfriend T.T Seriously, DUN mix your personal and work issues. I dun give a damn what problems u have with me outside, but when its cca time, co op with me.
Today de haunted house damn fun sia. Laugh at those kena scared. But i still find hollow inside. The music that i was doing didn't met up to my expectations even though the others claimed it to be scary. I dun even feel proud damnit. Is there like something wrong with me? T.T
Then come back got to argue with my mom. She today dunno why mood swing and i like her "punching bag" like that. keep trying to control myself. end up fail. so pissed off until u shouted fuck in her face sia. i'm unfilial rite? :(( haiz~
Today good friend just broke up. Feel kinda sad sia but to be honest, that was gonna happen sooner or later. In a way, it was good that it won't continue dragging on. Not good for both of them anyway......
Well, thats all for today i guess. Had a nice time confiding in you :)
And so, goodbye @ 10:52 PM
