Its been really tiring for me now. Waking up at 6, trying my best to stay awake and pay attention during lessons, chionging homework. So tired that my mood is weird. What i mean by weird is that i get annoyed easily, even with the most trivial things and also being annoying.. I feel like i've changed. For the worse.

Speaking of moods, i think i was quite good at controlling my moods. In the past. Now? Not really. Sometimes i wonder if i'm human, whether i'm lying to myself on how i should feel.

Some examples? Someone makes me pissed off or annoyed, i dont know if i should just laugh it off or shout at the person or vent my anger at something else. Instinct tells me that i should vent it out but my brain tells me that i should keep it inside me and relax. But its hard, its hard to give a smile when you're pissed off, when you're already tired. Yet i have to control it. Damnit, i dont really know how to describe it but oh well.. who'll be reading this anyway?

And so, goodbye @ 10:48 PM